:[ turn to be :D

kalau rasa kita susah,

ada org laen yg ag susah dari kita.

kalau rasa kita penat,

ada org laen yg ag penat dari kita.

kalau rasa kita serabut,

ada org laen yg ag serabut dari kita.

bila pk mcm ni baru la ble kurang tekanan dlm kepala ni.

dapat makan eskrem pn ble kurang tekanan..hehe

nemok bila nk datang sini? kita p mkn baskin robbin.

x syiok la kalau makan eskrem mahai2 x cukup korum..hehe

ps: ni coding colour ntok supir.. ;)

enough.

it's hard.
when u can't say it loud,
what's inside your head,
what's inside your heart.

it's hard.
because people won't understand
they will misunderstand
they will never know it.
and then will keep assuming.

let them be.
let they live with their assumptions.
i'm tired of explaining
tired of talking
the same thing over and over again.

it's time,
not to care what people will say,
not to worry what people would think.

it's time,
to know what u want.
to keep believing and trying
to achieve your aim.

yeah.
that's enough.
enough.
i'm tired.
i feel useless.
i feel nothing now.
let it be.
let it be.




if it's meant to be,then that's it.

bulan 3, yg haru-biru-celaru

since last few weeks, aku non-stop masuk lab. even weekend duduk dlm lab lama-lama. ckp je nk pipette berapa mL, tips kecik ke besau, petri dish, beaker, universal bottle, segala benda aku tau ada mana. x payah tunggu lab assistant baru nk mintak. aku bukak box kunci, aku amek kunci, bukak amek sendiri apa aku mau. dh siap guna basuh keringkan, letak balik. lab assistant x sedar pn aku buat semua tu. agaknya kalau aku seludup botol2 beaker volumetric flask tu semua p jual kat pasar malam pn sure dia x sedar. sebab dia busy melayan karenah macam2 budak lagi.

terasa macam senior sgt bila budak2 first second year tanya 'akak buat fyp ke?' 'tumpang tanya, nk streak plate macam mana ye?' adoi dik oii...streak je kot~~ hahahhaa. gila blagak. padahal dlu aku masa first second year masuk lab microb blurrr manjang. pastu kuar lab dok bising lab microb busuk. TAPI, sekarang aku siap ble tdo letak kepala atas meja lab ag. makan waffle dalam lab. minum air toksah ckp laa. sampai air aku sejuk sbb letak dlm lab. aircond bukak sampai 3 bijik. ada manusia dlm lab tu aku sorang je. mana x sejuk hoiiii...~

bila dah terpaksa masuk lab microb hari2, aku jadi immune dengan segala bau busuk lab, bau busuk autoclave, bau busuk contaminates plates, and bau busuk durian pn dh semakin immune. next monday, will be the 24th day of the fermentation process. and i can't imagine the bau.eeeuuuuwww~~~

esok, start HPLC. aku seteresssssss sgt dengan benda alah tu. nk buat sample sblm process inject sample dlm mesin tu je dh makan masa 3 hari. tu baru untuk 6 sample. aku ada 42 sample. gila. oh, rotary evaporator yg baru ni sgt baaaaaaekkkk! dia mampu siapkn sample aku dlm masa 2 jam lbh kurang! ini sgt menggembirakan hatiku ini..wahahahaa.

i lebiu boifren baru!

ok. nothing much left. hanya kepala yg tingtong. and thanks to kak naz, and kak kupot for the teatime break tadi. an ice-cream will always make me smile. :D but then kawan mamu tegur masa baru sampai desa lepas eskrem-dating. "kenapa nampak lain? nampak stress. fyp ke?" erk, maybe ke-stress-an tu kembali bila dh abes eskrem kot..hahahaha

nite!






walaupun terasa berat dengan result yg macam hampeh, pH reading yg x ketahuan, bacteria yg tenggelam timbul, tapi, lab assistants semua baek-baek. sanggup blek lmbt tunggu student buat kerja, sanggup berkejaran dengan kerja sendiri dengan nk melayan kerenah budak nk itu ini untuk fyp. Allah Maha Adil. Dia xkan bg kita susah sesusah susahnya. dalam kesusahan, ada kesenangan. Alhamdulillah. :)

gloomy day. all day long.

it's Friday, the great day of the week.
but for me, today is not a good day for me.
started with not-a-good-dream.
then a-moody-friend.
and then the bad atmosphere turn me into moody state.
not moody that makes me marah2 everybody around me,
but makes me gloomy all day long.
i have no mood to do anything.
no mood to do lab work.
no mood to eat.
and i can't even sleep!
i took an hour plus plus to fall asleep.
and end up having not-a-good-dream again.
supir was in my dream.
telling me to take the route to surau.
and then i drove soooo laju that i stopped suddenly when i saw a pusing-pusing punya jalan heading to multi-level parking.
then my phone vibrates.
need to wake up.
had a promise to meet supir.
maybe that's why he's in my dream.
*sigh*

after few hours laughing.
then my gloomy day continue as i dropped supir, and heading back to usm.
*haaaaaiiihhhhhhh.........*


supir,
saturday, please let me smile.

Lab with LAB.

Assalamualaikum.

saja nk buat entry pasal lab. lab with LAB- Lactic Acid Bacteria.

2 minggu dah berlalu. i have around 18 weeks to settle my degree. hopefully i can make it. lab dah mula, seriously mula. the past 3 weeks dok culture bacteria. semalam dah inoculate dlm durian. 12 hours dlm lab! haihhh...berpinar mata dok ngadap lampu dlm laminar flow tu. dengan api bunsen burner yg menyala meliuk lintuk dibuai air flow dlm laminar flow tu. pening. sampai xleh detect bau gas bocor walaupun tong gas tu ada la jarak dalam sedepa. bau durian mengaburi deria bau ku...huhu

126 samples siap. paling seksa bila guna sample sikit2. u have to timbang the sample btol2, sebab dh calculate nk inoculate bacteria byk mana dlm tu. dengan micro pipette yg seksa nk tekan. 2.6,2.8,4.0 micro liter bukan banyak mana ponnnnn...banyak lagi setitik air mata aku bila nguap. sekali tengok, ada 5 different micro pipette kat dlm laminar flow tu. semua aku conquer.

samples yg busuk..haha

sebelum nk memenuhi incubator ngan beratus plates, kena la kasi buang dulu semua plates yg dh guna. taaaaaauk je semua..penuh ngan bacteria. berminggu punya..ada yg dari b4 exam aritu ag..terlepas pandang masa clear up dlu..haha.

lactic acid bacteria je pn..and few plates with fungus and mould..haha

this time around i'm using 4 agar. last time 2 saja. sehari kena spread plate 120 plates. sikit saja compare to last time. ok la 120..colourful agar..haha. next time baru upload. semalam mls nk amek gambo.. sebab lapaq yg amat, tengah dok susun DRBC agar dlm incubator, atiq bwk mai waffle. naseb la ada kwn teman sampai mlm. siap pegi tesco belikan waffle ngan yogurt drink. so that was my dinner, choc waffle and Bliss yogurt drink. sehat gila, p makan dlm lab microb pulak. mmg bijak. dah 14 hours, x sakit perut or anything yg suspicious, means x contaminate lah..haha. but i contaminated my face. gatai muka pulak tiba2, p tonyoh dgn tgn yg ber-glove. gila cerdik. haaaaiiiihhhh.

bila mau back on thesis writing nihhh? malas sgt rasa.

sudah la kot. byk sgt dah merapu. gara-gara 12 hours non-stop ngadap durian. oh, i really can't stand working long hours in lab. i shouldn't apply for microbiologist position later on. T_T  QC ok kot..jalan-jalan, makan-makan, testing makanan. eh, tu kat secret recipe je lah..kilang laen QC susah ke x tataaauuu laa..

12pm. moh ler tdo. 3pm mau gerak pegi lab. 5pm pn boleh. 6 pn boleh. suka hati sebab experiment sendiri. haha~

nemok, kite dok dlm lab, kite jdi mls mkn. maybe fyp can help me to lose weight. cepat lah bulan 9, then u can start working in lab too..hehe


zzZZZZZzzzzzz~~~

Durian. Again.

17 weeks left.

and i'm gonna repeat my experiment starting tomorrow.

a 24-days interval.

will end by 25th March 2013, insyaAllah.

but that's the date for microbiological tests only.

i still have another 3 tests to settle down.

my target is by end of midsem break.

may Allah ease everything.

aminnnn.

yummy durian!
but when u keep it for daysssss.....busuk!

oh, my bulat will come home to penang this school holiday, insyaAllah, if there's no PRU during that time.