started with :( and ended with :)

kamu berdua,

terima kasih!

sebab spent time dgn sye.

sebab jalan-jalan dgn sye.

sebab sengal-sengal dgn sye.

sebab merapu-merapu dgn sye.

sebab tahan dgn perangai sye.

sebab jadi kawan sye.

sebab segalanya.

i started my morning with err,

not so good emotion.

therefore i slept for 4 hours because i hate to ask myself why i did till you're upset with me..

oh, i hate that.

abg chik yg datang dr jauh,

thank you for your effort, came here to meet us.

your kaklong yg sengal

and kakngah yg comel..haha

have a safe journey back to kelantan ok! ;)

en.supir yg semakin cute,

thanks for being so so so patient,

so kind,

so understanding,

and whatsoever so.

don't be sad.

and keep on smiling..ok!

kaklong yg semakin garang,

sorry sebab kakngah sangat..ketegaq.

jgn marah-marah.

nanti kakngah nanges.

kan kakngah cengeng.

(betul kah ejaan ini?)

sila jaga diri mendaki Larut ye..

ade rezeki kita naek Flag Hill pulak same-same..hehe

please keep crunchie punye plastic wrap okeh!

en.supir punye, kaklong punye, kakngah punye.
kaklong xmau en.supir blanje sbb nk en.supir blanje eskrem nti kat R&R. ngade tau~~

i'll end my day with a smile. thanks guys! :)

awk, sye saje nk peluk awk..hihii.malu lahhh~~ :P

you know, i know.

i'm sorry

i think i know what is my fault.

i'm sorry.

i'm so stubborn.

i know.

and

now i feel terrible.

again,

i'm sorry.

i should be updating about my day full with kesesatan yesterday.

but i have no mood to write anything bout it.

and the day we had so much fun few days back.

kaklong, en.supir, and adek,

thanks a lot.

you guys made my day and nights.

today, i'll just sit down,

hold a pen and pencil,

get my eyes on my notes.

kotak biru beroda 4,

i'm not gonna touch you.

and

i need ice-cream.

maybe that can heal me a bit.

real steel yg sgt best. kaklong dan en.supir yg sgt best jugak. terima kasih utk hari ini! :D

:)

nothing much.

just wanna say thank you.

dulu makan kat situ rasa laen je chicken chop tu. tp tadi makan sedap saje. haha.

btw, thanks belanja.. ^^

ehem,

untung la dapat OT ganda-ganda dari elaun kitorang...wuuu~~

ag untung dapat merasa duet OT...hehee :P

Gloomy Sunday. Busy Monday.

Maybe because I did nothing, my Sunday became gloooooooooomyyyyy…..i woke up, siap, jalan pegi IK, had brunch there with ain, a friend from kampus kejuruteraan. But perikians used to call her kakngah. One and a half hour is not enough la kakngah. We need more and more time to do our gossiping. Haha! Gonna miss u dear. J

It’s too hot outside there. So I walked back to my room, perform my prayer and I started to yawn a thousand times..huaaarghhh! kenapakah mengantuk nih? Err, maybe coz I woke up early.. *early kah?* niat di hati mau study. Well, I have 3 tests, end of October and early November. My friends already started their revision but what did I do these three days? Nothing educational for sure..huu~ My first weekend without any outdoor activities due to my injury. Enough. Nak buat camne lagi dh kaki tu luka? Duduk diam2 dlm blk jadi adik yg baek bak kata abg halif..aiseh. camane mau duduk diam2? X reti lah~  =.=

salah satu dua cara duduk diam2 ialah dgn ngadap laptop and tido. Alahai…hari-hari pn ngadap fb, blog, cite.. maka, mau tido. 2jam tido. Bgn tido, solat, siap-siap laju-laju dan keluar. Subway!!! Someone fetch me to subway for dinner cz I crave for subway yesterday..hehe. J ni sume gara-gara pegi post kat fb lah. Alahai..saje je post sbb tetbe ase mau mkn subway..thanks a lot for the dinner! I'm soooo full! ^_^ and sorry tekak ni mengada-ngada nk subway bagai. Yg khaleel depan RST tu ade xde pulak nk ngidam roti canai nasi kandar segala..subway pulak yg melintas kat kepala..huuu~

This is the 2^nd time u buy me dinner. Marry Brown and Subway. Thanks a lot.. J

marry brown punye burger. tatau nme ape..huu~

chicken teriyaki + pulpy

Oh, kaklong dh pulang dr PINK semalam. Beliau kne gigit pacat. Nampak sgt rindu kat sye kn? Kn sye ckp kalau ade luka / lebam / pacat / jatuh2 or ape2 saje lah tandanye kamu rindu kat sye…hehee. Ngaku cepaaattttt! :PP

nanti weekend ni beliau mau ke bukit larut pulak.. en.supir follow. cdey, x dpt follow. en.supir cakap baru mau kak6-kak6 tp x dapat lah. nanti kita panjat bukit jambul, kita kak6 ek..bukit larut pegi ramai2, xbest lah nk kak6... *macam mau sedapkan hati yg lara saje..wuuu*

done with gloomy SUNDAY.

monday yg terasa macam panjang. sebabnye bgn awal, siap-siap, had breakfast. dh lama x breakfast. tuan TKK ckp, "had breakfast like a king". maka, aku pun pegi la breakfast...nasi lemak. king makan nasi lemak ke? err...x kisah lah. but thats the only meal that i took. but then mula la perut kruuukkkkkk pabila petang menjelma....so before balik ajak akak singgah mcD. memang aku ni student food yg suka makan fast food. eh, mcD punye burger patty 100% beef and chicken woh...kire sihat la tu.heee~

pegi pusat sukan, tanye pasal program cycling. blurr sgt sbb tiga2 budak protokol x pegi meeting. pegi class yg xde dlm jadual, pegi ko-k anyam2 bakul rotan. best jugak buat bakul rotan..mula-mula macam hampeh. tenangkan kepala, then baru ble buat elok-elok. ni la hasilnye...tp ni baru halfway..hehee

2nd trial.ni base bakul ni je..dinding next class baru buat..huu~

kusyuk melilit...haha

ok dh ngantuk. assignment dh dapat 2 sekaligus harini sehari. sila rajin lepas ni. okeh! besok mau jalan-jalan. mau tdo, babai!

hati yg sedih kembali berbunga-bunga

tajuk entry yg xbley blah kan?haha. terase macam gedik semacam saje..haha. inilah akibatnye apabila diriku dilanda keboringan yg teramat. dari semalam nk update tapi tenet wat pasal dok loading manjang. tensi -tensi. tgh boring2 gini tgk2 ok pulak. maka...ngeh3~~

start dgn jumaat yg xde kelas tp x dapat tdo lame2 sebab ade macam2 hal. Tambahan pulak, pegi lepak bilik kaklong makan kek lapis ape tah asilah beli dekat school bio. Sedap. And sedih. Sebab nk kena tinggal. Kaklong same silah same adek same kawan2 yg laen pegi PINK (Program Interaksi KRU). Excited bagi nama awal2 dekat zhafri nk book tempat nk pegi PINK dengan kaklong, for the first time. Kaklong cite pink dolu2 best. So mesti kali ni best jugak. Dah la dekat Bukit Hijau. Dulu akak penah pegi situ, dia cakap best. Tapi….tapi……taa…piii……aku x dapat join. Sebab kaklong x kasi kaki injured x baek ag x buleh pegi camping2 outdoor2. Kena duduk dlm bilik diam2, buat surat untuk projek cycling, meeting untuk konvensyen, golek-golek then tido. Oh, I really wanna go there! Next week X-Larut pulak. Confirm lah aku x dapat join jugak. Haih. *I do get what I said before.*

nilah poster PINK. grrr~~ nk joinnnnn!

ni pulak poster x-larut. nk joinnn jugakkk!

tadi baru je elma msg tanya join ke x...dgn berat hati ckp xleh join.. T_T  syamir pn ajak pegi, buleh la kak6 sambil naek atas tu...huk3. maap kawan2..xdpt nk join. L

Boring tau dok diam2 dlm blk. Naseb baek ade BBQ alumni NRIC. Maka malamku terisi jua..huahua~ mengisi perut dgn ayam bbq, sosej, nugget serba dua, gelak tawa belambak-lambak then kekenyangan. Alhamdulillah… J

NRIC lilin-lilin....hehe

gambo yg gelap. naseb baek aku pakai tudung putih, at least nmpk jugak tudung tu...huu~

Destinasi seterusnya…..à IVORY! Ala-ala reunion kecik-kecilan perikians at GEE tomyam. Actually x plan pn dari awal. Mesej2 laju2 ajak ramai2. Tp ade jugak yg terlepas nk mesej. Well, I do not keep all num in my phone. Sorry if I don’t invite you. Bukan reunion sgt pn, just sit around and talk nothing and laugh. Oh, how time flies. Kejap je rasa..tengok2 jam dh sesuai untuk pulang beradu. Tapi balik blk pon x beradu lagi. Mengadap laptop jugak akhirnye.

Surat-surat untuk cycling. Harus di-settle-kan by this weekend. Sbb nk kena emailkan kat zhafri nanti senin beliau mau print tunjuk kat en.wan memandangkan beliau ade motor plus keadaan kaki aku yg telah melimitkan pergerakan aku. Ikut hati aku ok je jalan-jalan nih. Memang nk jalan2 banyak sem ni. Bcoz I put on weight but tadi terserempak dgn kakyan yg comel di Gee, beliau kata aku Nampak mcm loss weight. OMG! Kakyan! U’re the only person who said like that! Saying kak yan lebih lah! Muahx! Heeee~ *oh, sila terima kenyataan yg real se-real-real-nya ok*

Sabtu hari untuk tdo. Disebabkan ketiadaan kaklong untuk berjimba dan kaki yg x ok ag, maka bergolek dan tdo saje lah. Eh, ade meeting kejap lagi. Tp lepas meeting buleh sambung bergolek..lalala~ *lepas cuti deepavali ade 3 tests pn nk bergolek ag…ish3…sila insaf iqen!* tp at last, x tido jugak pon. makaseh TKK sebab ajar cket2 pasal protokol. and let me test drive..haha. sorry la, kasi jantung nk tercabut tadi..haha :P

Enough for now. Actually nk update semalam lepas balik dr Gee tp tenet macam kambing. Loading x abes-abes. Sejak-sejak USM x block dah youtube ni, tenet slow gila yg tersangat gila. Nk video call skype pn x lepas. Sangkut-sangkut. Benci. Sila la block kembali youtube itu……huhuu~

agree. J

Ps: dear guys, thank you for making me smile and laugh. all of you meant a lot to me. J

peng-update-tan di pagi jumaat! =)

morning!!!

it's a beautiful morning because i had great sleep last night.

balik meeting, lepak bilik zakiah ramle kejap. tunggu beliau pegi beli+buat megi, fb kejap di laptop beliau, tgk beliau mkn megi dgn laaaaaaazatnye *x pelawa pulak tu* dan hirup2 air laici beliau lepas tu balik bilik.

then my incik bestbuddy called. lama x sembang. sorry x call, busy plus hg pn busy kn? cuti nti balik roger aku. kalau x aku merajuk. hahaha. aku mmg suka merajuk dgn hg...lalalaa~~~

sembang-sembang then terasa malas nk bangun dr katil. *mau golek-golek rilek-rilek kejap lah. kejap lagi bangun edit proposal and surat*

*phone ringing, ringing and ringing*

eh, 6.35am? bukan nk golek kejap saje ke? apesal dh pagi?

well, thats me. pantang kalau bergolek kejap. maka akan ketiduran sampai pagi. kalau x bergolek, duduk ngadap laptop sampai 2-3am pn mata still celik. buat ape pn xtau la...cik rumate paling lambat 12.30 dia tdo. so kena duduk diam-diam, can't make noise cz da jenis senang terjaga.

disebabkan smlm tdo awal, maka pagi ni bangun awal. eh, tipu lah. kalau x kerana ada kerja, xde pasal aku nk bangun lagi. dah la xde class hari ni. tp ada pulak pelawat dari USIM, and i need to iring mereka2 melawat projek Eco-Desa. they'll be here at 9am. and now still x siap. off to siap now! taaaaa~~

enough

ikut kau lah, aku malas nk cakap pape dah.
aku pun ada hati.

pimpin siswa 2011 dalam kenangan~

Sekejap je rasa. Dah habis berpimpin siswa. Oh, betapa masa pantas berlalu. Begitu banyak kenangan tercipta, begitu banyak pengalaman ditimba, begitu banyak kegembiraan dirasa, begitu jua hati yg terluka.

Pimpin siswa 2009

Di sini segalanya bermula. Pelajar tahun pertama Universiti APEX. Pimpin Siswa yg pertama, siri ke-3. Di sini, tersemat sudah keinginan untuk menjadi fasilitator. Melihat keseronokan, keletihan, dan semangat para tenaga penggerak di kem D’Risa Impiana. “teringin nk jadi fasi nanti.” And now, I’m one of those tenaga penggerak of pimpin siswa. paling x disangka, dapat jadi fasi untuk kem yg lebih kurang sme mcm 1st year dlu. just tempat je laen. kem komandan (pn. kk) yg sme, Dr. Rahimah, ketua fasi (KF) yg sme, En. Zulfahmi, ketua urusetia (KU) yg sme asenye, En. Rashid. yg x same timbalan kem komandan (TKK) je asenye. walaupun samar-samar saje kenangan masa 1st year, tp ade jugak scene yg masih segar dlm ingatan. ayat KF "kamu banyak main....." dh x kedengaran sekarang. maybe KF dh tukar tagline..haha.

ketiga-tiga siri berlalu..tiga weekend di camp perik. tiga minggu yg berbeza pengalaman. tiga minggu yg penuh dgn keseronokan dan kepenatan. eh, bukan ketiga-tiga minggu penat actually..huuu~

PIMPIN SISWA KEM PERIK 2011

Pn.KK : Dr. Rahimah

Tn. TKK : En. Izam

KF : En. Zulfahmi

KU : En. Rashid

SU : Cik Nazira

FASI : mamu, En.amir, abg halif, abg ghad, in, mat, azzam, ratha, mus, syakir, rina, su, ain, nisah, farhana, marsya, fat and me.

PU : wafi, napi, fendy, hisyam, zul, eddy, kak tini, atin.

MA: En. Amin

NURSE : Cik Syazni

kem perik siri pertama. J

minggu pertama, siri pertama.

masih blur-blur ape fasi kne buat. still behave. xdenye nk demand mcm2, gelak pn supan-supan lagi..haha. baru nk kenal-kenal, x berani lagi tunjuk taring...behave-behave pn masih terserlah ke-loqlaq-tan diriku ini..hahaha. nk sembang2 ngan pn.KK, TKK, KF, KU, MA pn segan2 je..naseb baek ade jugak sikit2 fasi ngan PU yg kenal b4 pegi kem...ade jugak la kawan nk sembang...huhu

minggu kedua, siri kedua.

dh mula adapt ngan kem perik... and mereka-mereka yg laen. mula rasa keserasian yg wujud..senang bersama. makan bersama yg penuh dgn bermacam cerita...ragam in yg hyperactive, mamu yg x habes-habes cari pasal..huhu. tapi, ade something telah mencalarkan memory 2nd week ini. injured. tapak kaki kanan injured sbb tercucuk kayu masa activity lasak. tu laa...laen kali pakai kasut. orang laen ckp buka kasut, kau pn ikut je buka. orang yg ckp buka x injured, kau sorang je injured. padan muka..~

luka b4 dijahit....makaseh MA, sempat ag mintak nk snap pic...

fasi-fasi yg berlumuran lumpur masa activity lasak... J

maka, 5 jahitan selamat di tapak kaki. terjengket-jengket la kat kem. jalan cket je KF suruh duduk. jalan ag TKK pulak suruh duduk. mmg duduk saje je la sampai ahad. but still dpt handle 1 session. so xde la boring sgt x dapat marah-marah kat peserta mcm siri pertama..huhuu~

sempat lagi TKK, KF, KU sign kat bandage...salunye orang sign kalau kne simen je...huhu.tp ok jugak kat bandage..and i'll keep that bandage... J

segan sgt..TKK amek kan makanan, napi tuangkan air...terasa mcm OKU pulak.. lepas mandi nk cuci luka cari MA...cian MA..terkejar-kejar dgn peserta ag, fasi ag...huhuu.i'm sorry guys. never planned to get this wound. L

minggu ketiga, siri ketiga/terakhir.

selasa petang, kak naz call. panggilan ke perik..yeayy! igtkan dh injured x dpt la pegi kem. naseb baek ade rezeki ag...buleh la ganti blek kerilekan minggu lepas..hehe.malam tu jugak lipat baju terus masok dlm bag. xpyh tunggu mlm kames baru masok dlm bag..excited. maybe sbb minggu last kot...pasni kne tunggu sidang baru pulak baru ade pimpin ag. siri ke-3, handle survival cooking. awal-awal ag dh 'cop' nk activity ni...hehe.

siri 3 is a bit special because we have both nurse and MA. MA diimport khas ag...sabtu mlm baru sampai dgn En. Rashid. gigih sungguh beliau, ade kursus tapi dlm kepala mst berlegar-legar perik perik perik je...hahaha~

naseb baej jugak la ade MA, kalau x cian kak syazni. ramai betul budak2 sakit mnggu ke-3. sampai berkejar ke hospital ag...huhuu. peserta kne g hospital, maka fasi pn tumpang sekaki la. nk buka jahitan...auww2 jugak la mse nurse kat spital cabut benang tu...huhuu. kusangka panas smpai ke ptg, rupanya hujan di tghari. kusangka luka sudah bercantum, rupanya terbelah jugak... T_T baru buka jahitan lebih kurang 4jam, tgk2 terbuka balik...hadehh. takot nk kne jahit balik.....sakit...... L

4ptg, semuanye sibuk2 berangkat ke bus..kesedihan melanda. sedih kem dh berakhir, sedih luka terbuka...huk3.

berakhir sudah pimpin siswa 2011. alhamdulillah segalanya berjalan lancar..segala memori yg tercipta tersimpan rapi di kotak ingatan. moga ukhwah yg terjalin kekal selamaya..

Pada mulanya, tertanya-tanya jugak kenapa fasi x dirotate kem...xkan tiap2 minggu nk ke kem yg sama. x dapat la nk tgk kem lain...x dpt pengalaman yg berbeza. but now, i got the answer. setiap apa yg dibuat semuanya bersebab. setiap apa yg terjadi semuanya ada hikmah disebaliknya. setiap pengalaman sgt bermakna. 

i don't know how to put everything into words. i can't find any word best describe my feelings.

guys, i'm sorry if i ever hurt you, if i ever shouted at you, if i do anything wrong... and thank you for this great memories. i know i will miss you guys.... ♥♥♥♥♥

few of our name tags... ♥

pic siri pertama. 

pic siri kedua. ♥

pic siri ke-3. cian para fasi & pu kne crop dr pic..hukhuk~

kem perik, tenaga penggerak dan peserta, terima kasih untuk segalanya.....~

Perikians are the best!

.......

when u love someone,

u will always think of him/her.

when u miss someone,

u will always think of him/her.

when u care of someone,

u will always think of him/her.

i hope,

i am the one that u think of.

because,

u are the one that i always think of.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

dear friend,

if i am worth for u to think of even a minute,

i am really thankful.

.

.

.

but,

if one day we're not able to be like old days,

please don't hate me.

because,

u will always be my friend.

the one that i always think of.

....

5th day.

ouch!

sakit.

pedih.

but,

what else i can do?

just wait and hope it will recover really soon.

cause i can't wait to run again.

and walk faster than now.

ini semua ketentuan Ilahi.

pengalaman hidup.

moga dapat kembali seperti dulu.

amin.

please don't feel lonely..

lonely and alone

two different words

two different meaning

but end up with same feeling

sad.

please

don't feel lonely

i'm always here for u

just...

sometimes i feel like

i need some time just for myself

to go have fun with my friends

with my family

or spend my time alone watching movies

please

don't be sad anymore

u will always be my priority.

ps: i love u.