mata dah kuyu tp nk jugak menaip~~

assalamualaikum.

its 3.33am now.

just finished with my mindmap.

oh,sleepy. because i woke up early today.

nothing much.

just wanna share my happy moments with two wonderful girls.

this is kaklong and her roommate.
they're both my unofficial roommates.huahaha~~

i showed them a few pictures. and cik rumate said,

"comelnye!"

*seronok.gelak sipu-sipu blaja dr kaklong..hihihi*

i'm chubby since i'm a little kid..hahaa~

ade lagi nk upload tp error pulak.hampagas btol..

dh malas dh,nk tdo.

besok ade study group lagi.

nite! eh,monin!

yes,imy.

i never hug someone and cried that much.

a thousand thanks for the hugs.

~

I learned to live, half-alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

be strong dear heart.

tough and rough

i didn't mean to be rough.

there's a limit in everything.

u have to know that limit.

enough.

its a tough day today.

i have to be tough too.

enough is enough.

third day of study week.

assalamualaikum.

1st day bangun awal, gigih-gigih pegi school sbb kawan-kawan ckp prof nk kasi list factory for practical. actually aku x kisah pn pegi lambat since aku mmg dh confirm dpt secret recepi. tapi curious gak nk tau sape partner aku for practical. and there you go.....AZURA ALIAS & DOREEN. oh, only 3 person for this company. sedih gak la kak fasha x jadi nk practical kat sr. naseb baek ade azura..hehe. skang dh bg 1 keje kat kimi, iaitu misi mencari bilik sewa for me and azura. jgn la dapat yg sewa mahal sgt. aku ni warga PT je.....huhu~ lega dah pasal tempat nk practical. now just focus on final exam. so lepas settle pasal practical, we continue with our SG Mania, our study group..haha.sengal kn?study group siap ada nama lagi. siap ada group kat fb ag..hahaha. and today, CYCLING TOUR USM. hahaha. seronok but penat cz dh lama x kayuh beskal. tambah pulak kayuh merata. mmg merata. naek turun bukit sampai ke minden, batu uban, hep lama tu, cancelori, segala lah. cycling with a new friend, yg aku kenal masa pegi caving. padahal dh 1 school since 1st year. nk pulak hari ni pegi cycling sama2 pakai baju school. hadeh..malu.segan.wuwuu~


oh, semalam x study mende pn sebab bersuka-ria dr bgn tdo sampai ttp mata nk tdo..huahahaha~ this is because, we had bbq yesterday. :D oh, i love it so much cz it's been a very long time we didn't see each other. oh, i miss them a lot. the ayam, so yummy, but i ate a drumstick only. sgt kenyang. sebab throughout the cooking and serving the food, aku dh telan sikit2..hahaha. makan hotdog cket masa pas masak. minum cocktail bergelas2 b4 serve kat meja depan. telan kek batik resepi merapu aku ngan sue. hahahhaa.. suka3! and believe it or not, lepas penat2 seharian dr dr 11am, after settle bbq session, kitorang pegi jalan-jalan kat pesta pulak. saja nk jalan tgk ade pe yg best kat pesta. oh, i don't really mind bout the games. sbb buang duet saje. nti naek jerit-jerit, turun muntah-muntah penin-penin loya-loya. enough with those experience dgn cody, long and shah. i can't stop laughing bila teringat cody naek topgun pastu turun muntah. 3x pulak tu..hahaha. and also shah yg jerit "makkkkkkk" smpai topgun tu stop..hahahahha.


and today, and the next day, and the next next day, please study.
10pm already. back to work.
okbai~~




ps: kaklong bercuti sakan di cheras. nk sembunyi kunci bilik beliau..huahaha~

hati gumbira lalala~~~

manja kah saya?

hahaha...

mama kata, makan budi tergadai body.

but for me, orang berbudi,kita berbahasa.

thanks, abg!

:)

1st day of study week

Alhamdulillah, aku study jugak.. walaupun cket.hahahaha. well,aku la manusia yg paling malas study abad ni. so nk bangga la jugak bila berjaya study walaupun 1 chapter. gigih xmo on laptop sbb nti kalau dh on, mmg ssh nk shutdown blek. ni bukak laptop pn sebab kawan mai nk amek movie..and aku pn amek movie la dr dia..ngeh3~ *kiah,nti kita tgk cite antu ni same2 ek..hehehe*

dh 2 hari terbengkalai niat nk cycling tour usm..hehe. insyaAllah ptg ni nk pegi la..mntk2 ade beskal. :)

saje gatai tgn nk update.

okbai!

campur aduk

assalamualaikum.

16jam di rumah, and kembali ke usm.

well,umah dekat. so blek kejap je sudah la.

kalau dok umah,mmg jgn harap la aku nk study.

blek umah smlm bwk blek baju nk basuh few helai,pastu lupa bwk blek cleanser.

oh, i don't have extra cleanser tinggal kat umah sbb nye blek umah pn sebulan sklli, xpyh la nk beli extra tinggal kat umah. mcm x perlu. haha.

mama lah, kalut suh blek sbb besan dia bwk mai durian byk. xde sape nk mkn.

BANYAK la sgt bila aku blek tgk ade 4 biji je. gigih nk aku blek jugak tgh2 malam.

mentang2 la dia kenal napi, ble je soh napi angkut aku blek jugak.

mandatori.

oh, besok dh senin. bermakna bermula lah study week.

tp dlm entry b4 this, aku ckp nk start study pagi ni. tp.....

hahahaa. seruan mama utk pulang.

maka start la besok.hahaha..

this time,aku tamau buat schedule.

nk study je ape yg aku nk..sbb kalau wat schedule pn mne pnah ikut.

dh 4 sem punya study week ade schedule, tp xde nye aku follow sebijik2.

so this time around, just go with the flow..lalala~~

terasa sonok bila dpt penuhi kemengidaman kawan.

cian dia, nk sgt makan durian.

naseb baek ade org bgtau.

and now,aku pulak ngidam.

tu la, sape soh mata meliar sgt.

nmpk subway, teringin subway.

oh,cannot. queensbay itu sangat jauh.

-____-''

kaklong masih berbahagia di cheras.

cik rumate beliau pn.

maka, duduk la diam2 study dlm bilik sniri.

xpayah pegi menempek blk org..huhu~

nk cari notes.

okbai.

hari ini hari sabtu

hari ini hari sabtu.
jiwa pn dah x gundah gulana.
sebab segalanya dh settle.
Alhamdulillah, 5 sem bersama Eco-Desa Saujana.
moga kalian makin maju. :)

hari ini hari sabtu.
niat di hati mau tdo golek2 sampai tghari.
tp x dapat sebab kne bgn pagi2 pegi kemas blk ecodesa.
yelaa,lepas ni nk tinggal lama.
ag pn nti ble study group kat blk tu.
sejuk,ade aircond..hehe

hari ini hari sabtu.
my bestfriend is coming over.
jalan2 time!
dh lama x melilau.
konon bz..huhuu

hari ini hari sabtu.
*yea,dh gtau 3x pn*
hari ntok rilek2 sebab besok niat di hati nk start study.
first paper is on 5th Jan.
and last paper is 17th Jan.
so baek la enjoy puas2 hari ye.
my kaklong blek cheras.
seronok btol dia.
my abg pegi jalan2,siap naek bukit bendera ag.jeles ok?
sebab dok dlm blk diam2 tgk movie saje.
kejap ag baru nk kuar..huhu.

nk siap.
okbai.

rosak diet aku..haha

ni sume kaklong lah.

bgn tdo je tgk hp ade msg.

"dh bgn tdo mai blik"

arahan mandatori dr kaklong.

igtkn mende,

upenye beliau belikan kite kebab..hihi

tp kite diet lah kaklong...

tp kaklong dh beli, kite pulak bru bgn tdo, lapaaaaa..

maka habes 1 kebab.selesai.hahaha

lepas tu, cik rumate pegi belikan pecel ayam pulak.

ntok mereka sorang satu.

byk kruk2 pulak.

ehem.curik cket kaklong punye!hahahaha..

but then i end up pedas3 yg amat.

eh, nape aku pegi telan nasik skli nih?

mushkil dgn diri sendiri.

padahal diet la konon.

semalam 1 hari x mkn nasi..

mai hari ni dgn nasi tghari tdi mkn kat ik, kebab, pecal.

selesai.

ok, rosak diet aku dr senin aritu.

=.=

ah,pedulik ape..best jugak maen curik2 nasi ngan ayam kiah & cik rumate beliau.

kenyang.alhamdulillah..

hehehee.

kamu berdua, makaseh!

ps: warna font yg ceria. malas dh nk emo.lantak la nk jadi ape pn..huahaha~

-emoing again and again-

sometimes, when things become complicated, what u can do is just smile.
because, complicated things are complicated to explain.


when smiling is way too hard,
let the tears take over.


life is so unpredictable.
u never know what is waiting for u in future.
u can plan everything but never be sure everything will be just like what u've planned for.


ignore, just ignore all those complicated things.
but for how long?
for how long can i ignore?
just wait, till the time comes.


ya Allah, give me strength.

-emoing again-

"i'm about to lose my mind, u've been gone for so long......"

yes, u've gone. away. far away.

and maybe i should let u go.

too much to think of.

i'm tired.

just go away from my mind.

let me rest.

"bring me back to life........."

suramnya warna font ini sama seperti suramnya hatiku dikala ini.

lovely morning!

its a miracle!

i woke up early just to have some breakfast.

yeah, tuna sandwich with a cup of nestum. but i put two sachet of 3 in 1 honey nesvita *i prefer to call nestum*. if i put 1 sachet only, it will be so cair. and i don't like it.

this is today's breakfast.

see, pekat giler nestum wa...hahahaa!

mau siap2 and pegi sit for test. food processing test..

okbai!

-emoing-

Darling don't be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

dear my sayangs,

i love u.

Syukur Alhamdulillah :)

Alhamdulillah.
my 2nd project done!
byk kekurangan.
keyakinan diri.. *i'm so bad in giving speech..stupid mistake dpn tnc pulak tu..stupiiddddd!!!grrrr~~*
organization..
tidur.. *sbb tu ade entry sleepless*
yg x kurang ialah >> MAKAN!
yep, sbb mknn byk dr manusia.
so mknn sgt byk..huhu~


Konvensyen Kelestarian Eco-Desa 2011
done!!!!
proposal yg dh berkurun siap, tp 17 & 18 December 2011
baru la terlaksana.
and this is my last project in ecodesa saujana
dh 5 sem berkecimpung dlm dunia kelestarian.
1 sem as pengarah is enough.
pass kat farah pulak.
and hopefully Eco-Desa Saujana akan terus maju biar pun x semua tahu ape itu Eco-Desa.


besok, lusa, tulat, tungging ade test.
pastu berguling...huahahaha~~


nk kne study.
okbai.

this entry is for you. :)

terima kasih.

sbb jadi abang yg baek.

sudi dengar segala gelak tawa keluh kesah diri ini.

moga ukhuwah yg dibina tak putus hendaknya.

years ago, its hard for me to use that word.

but maybe that word suits u.

i don't care if they laugh.

and i do like that word, adek.

thanks for everything.

*smile*

sleepless

its been a long day to me.

wake up before 10 am, friday morning and stay awake till 11.40 am, saturday. but slept only for few minutes. but i managed to sleep for 40 minutes at 6 pm and now waiting to sleep.

what a very loooong day.

its ok.

sunday, monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday.

then, on friday i'll sleep all day and night..wahahaha~~

ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusanku..amin.~

7 hari saje.

jumaat

sabtu

ahad

senin

selasa

rabu

kames

sila baek-baek aje ye.

hari yg seterusnya, sila gigih utk final.

learn from the mistakes u made,

not to repeat them.

few days lagi, sem ni akan berakhir.

don't think bout it too much.

yeah, berderet!

monday: test preservation prof.azhar

tuesday: test processing dr.cheng

wednesday: test lab 4 lecturer punya combine soalan

thursday: test psiko yg mmg buat aku psiko

berderet test minggu depan. roommate aku ckp padan muka sebab minggu ni dia dh berderet test, aku dok rilek2 buat lab report sambil jeling2 tgk secret garden  next week turn aku pulak. kena sedas padan muka. =.=
oh, secret garden ni amek dr LONG. makaseh. dah lme amek, dr awl sem, mse minggu konvo yg beliau datang sini dlu. tp terperuk je dlm hard disk ni. kesian dia, maka aku pun tgk lah. masalahnye, kalau aku dh start tgk drama korea ni, aku nk tgk laju2 bg cepat2 abes. tp aku bukan jenis yg forward2. aku tgk xde nk forward2, layan sungguh2 tp xde nanges2. x macho lah tgk drama korea nanges2 bagai..hahaha~


esok rabu. xde lab. bahagia! tp still ada byk keja yg aku pn xtau keja apa.
lab report x siap lagi. besok pg nk kena g anta. pastu, buat text speech.
dulu buat speech ntok org, ni nk kne buat speech ntok diri sniri pulak.
oh, minggu depan last dah.
nk masok study week sudah!
i'll be a free girl after thursday 22nd!
yeaaahhhhh!!!

mimpi yg sengal lagi.

assalamualaikum.

rupanya, kalau di alam nyata ni aku meluat+benci kat manusia tu, dalam mimpi pn aku still meluat+benci kat dia. memang mimpi tu permainan tdo, tp mcm real pn ada. siap ada kesinambungan ag.

well, ade la aku meluat beberapa org ni. yg pelik tu nape la tempat mimpi aku tu kat umah 'bakal suami' aku? tp xtau pulak sape yg 'bakal suami' tu..huahahaha. mereka yg aku x suka tu siap dok makan egg tart ag. dh la bulan puasa based on timing dlm mimpi aku tu..huhu. merapu. tp still, if i don't like u here, i'll never like u  even in my dreams. arasso? err, rumah 'bakal suami'? hahahaha. yg ini baru betul2 merapu. hahaa~

2.22 am to 2.30 am

lab report x siap ag.

ice cream and canned chicken curry.

calculation x sentuh ag.

discussion malas nk settle.

mata makin sepet.

besok class 10am.

si buncet cakap buat sambil tdo.

mmg la aku ni terror sgt kan?

makaseh budak.

atas idea yg bernas.

=.='

prof gulam cakap this week dia akan announce tempat practical.

hopefully i'll get a good place to complete my 9 credit hours for practical next sem.

adios usm...sayonaraaaa~~~

and probability for me to do practical outside penang is 100% since i requested not to do my practical here based on few reasons.

i gonna miss u guys.

yep, u, u, u and u guys lah!

:(

dear myself,

please be strong.

big girl don't cry.

8 minutes mumbling here.

okbai.

final exam

Jadual exam dh released. pls take note tulisan hijau itu.

maka, haruslah diri ini nk check jadual exam.
paparan ini menjelma pabila di klik 'Jadual Individu' pada butang di bahagian kiri page.
setelah itu, haruslah dimasukkan num ic sendiri.
utk keselamatan diri ini, num ic tidak dinyatakan.
harap maklum.

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namun, paparan yg menghampakan ini yg menjelma.
NO KAD PENGENALAN TIDAK WUJUD!!
=.=
aku ni bukan student usm ke?
xnk kasi aku amek exam ke?
grrrrr~~~
actually x tgk sini pn xpe.
buleh je klik kat 'Jadual Waktu'
but then u have to scroll down and look at the kod kursus one by one and take note the date and venue for ur course instead of just print screen the jadual individu.=.=
plus, i need to know whether i'm in DP B or DP A for psycho paper.
hundreds of USM students are taking that course.
nampaknye, aku kne daftar blek kot jadi 1st year.
usm nihhh...
dh nk abes 1 sem 3rd year tau x?
still x ada data aku ke dlm system.
hampagas sungguh~

check next time lah.
okbai.

ps: sedih. sem dh sampai ke penghujung.

friday, dec 9th.

i will hug u when i know something wrong with u.


i wish u know when to hug me too.




u don't need to say even a word,
just lend me your shoulder,
and wipe my tears.

............

i can ignore.

but for how long?

the hardest thing to do is to CHOOSE....

Indecision becomes decision with time.

Choices are the hinges of destiny.

it's hard to choose, to make decision,

but,

how far you run away, you still have to face it.

this is life.

your life, your choice.

puasa-kisses-sorethroat

Assalamualaikum and selamat petang.

hari ini sye puasa.

sudah lama x berpuasa.

puasa sunat hari asyura.

Alhamdulillah selesai puasa satu hari tanpa bersahur.

sape suruh tdo lambat, set alarm byk2 pn x sedar.

jaga je dh 5.55 am, imsak dh lepas ok.. =.=

maka berpuasa lah tanpa sahur makan or minum.

terbaek sbb last mkn 27 jam sebelum azan maghrib tadi. huu~

and thanks kaklong, teman sye berbuka.. :)

anak sedara pupu datang bersama coklat muah2.

hancur punah sesi diet.

huahahaha~

benda dh ada depan mata, makan saje lah..hehe

and now suara dh sexy...serak2 basah gittew~

dh lama x sakit tekak nih..

takot demam la pulak. baru dok plan nk blek umah ptg kames ni..

haih.

okbai.

nk balik......tp byk keje.next week pn xleh balik. adooiiii... sekian. :(

rindu sangat

baru 7 bulan.
tapi dh rasa rindu sangat.
rindu nk rasa excited nk sampai ke puncak.
rindu nk rasa penat naik slow2 ke puncak.
rindu nk nanges kepenatan.
rindu nk nyanyi sepanjang jalan.
rindu nk mandi and minum air sungai yg sejuk.
rindu nk ckp keluar asap.
rindu nk amek wuduk gigil-gigil atas puncak.
rindu mereka-mereka yg gigih sabar dgn diri ini.


teringin.
bukan x nk pegi lagi.
tp hanya mampu ntok listkn kerinduan ini.
sebab separuh hati ini dh x rasa ke-excited-an macam dulu.
moga kerinduan ini dapat terubat nanti.


rindu segala yg dirasai masa X-YONG YAP II~~

X-HOLE, done!

Alhamdulillah.

done with my last outdoor activity for this semester.

and next semester, not sure what i gonna join cz of the practical thing.

congrats nanex, good job. :)

X-HOLE 2011

new experiences, memories, gua yg cantik, kawan baru, baju busuk, stokin basah, poncho yg merimaskan, muka yg burn sedikit padahal trekking kejap saje dlm hutan, and tekak yg masih sakit.

perjalanan ke perlis dekat 5 jam.

bus lambat, aircond yg x sejuk, tdo kejap2 terjaga sbb macam lama sgt dlm bus.

tp x kisah sbb hati excited sgt nk sampai sana.

and perjalanan blek ke penang almost 7 hours.

hujan sepanjang jln, aircond bus sgt sejuk sampai aku msok dlm sleeping bag. syakrawi pn sme. terpelosok dlm sleeping bag mcm dok dlm kepompong..haha.

12.15 am sampai usm.

singgah blk kaklong, lalu tdo kat sane sbb mls blek blk yg hanya few steps down there..huhuu~

apapun, x-hole seronok and menarik!

teringin nk caving lagi.

and teringin nk msok gua yg lebih mencabar..sbb kali ni punya xpdc la the only xpdc yg x injured langsung.

no lebam-lebam luka-luka. pacat saje.

serius berlungguk pacat kat camp site + dlm gua.

kecik-kecik kurus-kurus pulak tu.

even dh pakai stokin pun pacat gatai nk gigit. hampeh punye pacat.

baju pink. mmg aku errr saje pas tgk baju ni. -__-

syakrawi di dalam kepompong.haha
begitu jua diriku..huahua

trekking to pintu gua.
yg landing itu pengarah projek.

lokman and ya yg x reti duduk diam.
kemey pn same. and itu ncik ipin.

ramai-ramai tunggu sorang-sorang lepas dr kawasan yg sempit.

selekeh + selebet. i don't mind.

ncik ipin pengiring kitorang yg cool. sedang bertapa 2 saat. haha

ini photographer. kemey. makaseh budak!

i love outdoor.

sebab boleh busuk-busuk, selekeh selebet, tudung senget-senget.

x perlu cantek-cantek.

pakai saje ape yg ada.

kalau xde, x pyh pakai ape-ape..hehe

sebab tu smlm aku pakai kain batik ke hulu ke hilir.

seluar trek basah. tinggal jeans saje.

mls nk pakai jeans di kala hujan mencurah-curah.

kat yong-yap dlu pakai kain batik kejap saje..huhu

x kisah lah pakai ape pn.yg penting enjoy activity tu. :)

ps: busuk selebet nanges pn ade org suka? hairan.

week 8

status fb silap. bukan week 9 tp baru week 8.
2 months to recover.
alhamdulillah.
walaupun x kembali mcm dulu,
at least x teruk.
ade 1 line kemerah-merahan je.
nanti ok la bila kulit baru develop.
*x payah nk tolak seribu lah..hehe*

tomorrow,
X-HOLE.
moga segalanya selamat.
moga dapat kaut berjuta pengalaman.
rugi kalau hidup ni buat benda yg sama je.
alih-alih ngadap laptop, tgk buku,
shopping, tgk wayang.
boring.
once in a while,
try something different.
then u'll know it.
the feelings doing those things,
having fun with friends,
treasure the world.
it worth.
believe me.

ps: too much to keep deep inside. don't let it out. please.

1st december 2011

sikit minit lagi 1st december 2011 nk turn to 2nd december.

started my day with an ice cream, cornetto chocolate.

thanks! perfect timing. :)

sebab tgh penat2 baru blek blk about an hour and half.

x larat nk mandi, dlm kepala yg dok berdenyut pk nk tdo je.

thanks dear classmates. ajak jalan2 pegi tgk wayang.

celita melayu maa...

Ombak Rindu.

adaptasi dari novel.

but actually baca novel lagi layan.

dolu-dolu baca novel ni sampai lap-lap air mata lagi. tp tdi tgk movie x nanges pn. cool saje. maybe sbb dh tau plot cerita kot. but the plot ada jugak yg berubah. overall, Ombak Rindu best jgk lah. and romantic. heee~

kalau dh keluar g qbay, mmg dh harus lah mkn TAKOYAKI. dh jadi feveret skang nih. hehe.

*terpengaruh dr kaklong, en.supir and cody lah...huhu*

lepas mkn, penat jalan2 pusing qbay sebab nk cari kedai SAWKS yg asenye dh GHAIB dr qbay.

mmg la pusing2 qbay tu as training nk pegi caving sabtu nti kn? dh en.nanex kte training sniri2, pegi training sampai ke qbay...hih~~

 =.='

besok kne jaga booth kraftangan. pastu mau pegi panjat bukit jambul sama kiah and syamir.hehee..mst syamir terkejut tgk kiah. x sabar nk tgk reaksi beliau..hehhehee...

*jgn mrh ye kaklong. :P *

jumaat. sabtu. ahad. moga segalanya baek2 aje. =)